Park

With little gaps of good weather we have been spending some time outside! The boys love it and they don't want to come in even if it starts to pour rain. We ate out side and they just sat next to each other so good, Tristin was even laying his head on Gavin's shoulder. For these guys that is pretty good, as much as Gavin loves to give kisses and loves, Tristin will avoid it at all cost!

Yesterday we went to the Playground of Dreams with some friends because we thought it would be good since it is fenced in but it is such a big area and some many big kids it was stressful and I ended up needing a nap when we got home. Three hours of chasing one kids going one way and then going the other way chasing the other one was pretty exhausting! They loved it and probaby would have stayed all day.

The funniest thing is Gavin when we go places because no matter where we are, the doctors office, the playground, or even church, he will go up to people he doesn't know and will stare at people almost right up in their face. It was funny yesterday at the park because this man was bending over to his kid to button his coat up and Gavin walked over and bent his head down to get under his face about 6 inches away and just started to stare. I think he scared the guy! He thought he was bending over to see his kids coat but instead he was seeing some random kid starring at him!!! I laugh because it is so weird that he does it but it could be considered a little rude. Hopefully he will grow out of this, if not I guess I will have to change my response, other wise I will have a 10 year old kid walking up and starring at people with a blank look on his face.

Laughter and home sickness

I was going into the boys room last night while they slept and as I was putting the blanket over Tristin he started to laugh a really cute laugh. He was asleep and must have been dreaming a good dream about a cute girl(mom) chasing him around(the family room)! It must have been so much fun! But I just started to smile and thought this is a precious moment that I wanted to cherish.

I have friends coming into town this weekend, people I knew from Houston. It is so fun, because I really get home sick for Houston and my friends that I left behind. I hope that it is as fun as I think it will be! I'm excited for them to meet the boys. I will take pictures and post them after the weekend.

Ouch!

Tristin was upset that I gave Gavin a sucker and not him so he is eating a chocolate Zinger! I figured that it more then made up for the sucker!

Yesterday was a pretty nice day, so I figured I would take the kids to the school yard behind the house and run around. As we went out the front door Gavin made a run for the road and when we got to the curb he just fell straight down on the asphalt. He has a bruised forehead, which is what bounced off the ground, and a scrapped nose and lip. This is what scares me the most, my kids going different directions and I can't get to the one that is going to get seriously hurt. He looks funny, and so last night I took only Tristin to the store with me so I could avoid any questions about what happened to Gavin's face. OUCH!

Lost Moments

Have you ever sat down after a busy day and wondered what happened to the day? I feel like that a lot lately. I get to that time when the boys are just about to go to bed and I think how much longer till bed. Then, the second they are in bed and the lights are turned out, I think what happened to the day. What do I do ever day?

I get up and feed the kids, which is a task since they usually want to pull on my leg until the food is ready and whine because they want to hold the oatmeal package or they want me to hold them. Then we sit down and I try to get them to eat, it takes everything in me not to freak out as they turn their heads and throw their cups repeatedly on the floor and whine that they want it back. Or how they just decided that today they don't want oatmeal even though they love it and eat it every day, and tomorrow they will love it again, but for today no oatmeal or Oranges or Bananas or whatever else it might be. More food ends up on the floor then in their mouth which also drives me crazy.

After eating and cleaning up we head up stairs to take a bath, but it is a chore these days to get them up the stairs all the way, and not go back down(when I go to get one the other starts back down and so on...) I shut the doors so they can't get into anything while I run the water. The boys usually end up pulling all the trash out of the Trash can or start to play in the toilet water or pull the dirty clothes out of the hamper. (As you can see by now there are lots of OR's). After finally getting them clean, we dry off and turn on Tiger and Pooh, and run around naked till I can catch one of them and wrestle them to the ground for lotion and diaper. The clothes come after I have had a breather, maybe ten or fifteen minutes, and we play till naps which after a full morning is only 30 min.

I go to school now at 11:30, so I leave around 11:10 to get to school on time(which I usually am not!). I shower and leave for classes, when I get back my Awesome mother has feed them while I am gone and I can just enjoy them. They see me and start to tell me something not quite anything but with enough motion that it has to be something! Maybe it is that the kids played with them or what they ate or that they missed me. I hope to one day when they really start to talk I can figure out what they are saying but till then, They miss me!

The kids play while I usually watch...T.V. that is, because at this point I am ready for a nap, but I don't take one and instead I break up fights over toys or calm crying upset kids with bumps or bruises. I get drinks and snacks and chase Tristin who has just ran into the Family room with his cup and try to send him back to the kitchen, while Gavin makes a break for it. Where do they think they are going anyways, they are hitting wall(which atleast makes it easier for me)? Nap time comes not a moment to soon, (which I hate to admit, but a little quite time with out the crying, whining, sick, hurt, hungry, thirsty, kids is a blessing for the little time left that they will take a 2nd nap) and while they nap I take the opportunity to get some math homework done. But all to soon it is dinner time and time to start the feeding process all over again.
I watch them play and I watch them interact with Grandma and Grandpa and I am just thankful that their attention is on someone else even if for just a second.
The then it is that time right before bed when I think what have I done with my day.

I wrote this maybe just to vent, but not to make it sound like I hate my kids or resent them. Because I do love them and they make me laugh even when they throw there cups on the floor for the 15th time. I love them no matter what they do or how much they do it. But I think that sometimes I am at that point everyday that I forget to just BE. I wish that I didn't just look forward to the next nap or bed time but instead I wish that I could enjoy the time that I am with them as something really special. I have been thinking lately about how I will never get this time back. This time right now and each moment I am in, I just need to enjoy it. I will miss everything if I constantly look at life as what is next instead of what I have at this very second.

I hope that I don't come off as sounding resentful, maybe a little drained but not so much that I can't recognize the mistakes I may have made and try to change! Sometime we look at other people's trials and we think I could never go through that, thinking we aren't strong enough. But I am thankful for my trials because they make me who I am, and I am a person that I am proud of and I am a lot stronger because of the things that I have had to bear. My trials aren't any less harder just because someone else's trials seem harder. I am just thankful for my parents who have been able to lift some of the burden and for my savior who without him I would be able to recognize these things and make changes for the better. The Lord does not give us anything harder then we are able to withstand!!!